Just going to do it.....and enjoy it dang it!

3.) Stepping outside the box (describe a time when you went way out of your comfort zone)

I had it all planned out before the first positive sign. My husband and I would work alternating schedules so that one of us could always be home with the kids. With my home-based call center job and his random hours job, it worked perfect. We talked about and understood that this would mean sacrificing a lot of our together time, but it was worth it to us. And it worked great when we only had one. One little teeny tiny tator tot that was still so cute you could never be mad at him. And then the second little teeny tiny tator tot came along. And it was still good for awhile, other than the battle with ppd. But now. Now I have a very independent preschooler and curious toddler. Now there is a bit more chaos. Now there are more errands to run, more things to do, and less time to do it all in. My husband usually gets the kids during the day, when they are refreshed and happy. I get them tired (and the house they have messed up all day) in the evening. The thing that I never thought of in my perfect plan? Mommy time. Daddy gets to leave the house to go to work. When daddy runs to the store, he goes alone. I am in this house 24-7, and when I do leave it, my little rugrats are with me. ALL THE TIME (yes, even to the gyno if you can imagine!). So, needless to say, this momma needs some me time.


Since I love sushi and don't get it often, I decided that what I wanted was some AYCE sushi at my favorite place. Not expensive (if you go alone), I would be able to eat MY OWN FOOD! for once, it would be perfect. It took awhile to find a day this could be done, but I have found it. Tomorrow.

So, what does this have to do with my comfort zone? Well, I have never done this. I am a fairly self-conscious person, and the thought of people feeling sorry for the "lady eating alone". And, like I mentioned, I don't go anywhere alone, so it is kind of out of my comfort zone.

But, I am going to do it. I am going to bring my book (ironically 1-2-3 Magic-so I guess I am not escaping things completely, lol) I may cheat and get there early and ask for one of the booths that have little walls around them, that would be nice. Although it is a Friday afternoon and I don't know if they will appreciate that much, it will make MY experience more comfortable. Small steps. Because I know me. Here is what will happen. My heart will beat fast the whole drive over there. When I get there, I will feel like everyone already there is looking at me with either pity or laughing at me because I forgot my blouse or something. I will get all sweaty and hot. I will sit there and not enjoy my meal because I am slouched over it and trying to hide my face. Not sounding so fun. But it is time away. And I want to encourage my kids to be independent and go out of their comfort zones. And I REALLY need some time away. So I am going to do it!!! I may return home sweaty and smelly but I am going to do it! Maybe if I do enough of these mommy-escapes I will eventually go in and sit at a table right smack dab in the center!!